The End of an Era . . . Time for a Change
This post is a little bittersweet for me, to be honest. On the one hand, I am SUPER excited to share with you that my blog has a fresh look. I just felt like it was time for a change. I’ve been writing this blog for five years now. Crazy! I know. I love blogging. It’s been such a fun way for me to write and keep up with everything going on with my family. And it just felt as though maybe the blog needed a little face-lift. Nothing too major, but some fresh changes. I absolutely love the new look. What do you think?
Now to the bittersweet part. We’re talking about change, loveys. You guys know that I’m actually one of those strange people who likes change, to an extent. I do. It keeps things interesting, I suppose. But some changes are harder than others. Before I dive into all the change, let’s chat.
First, let's talk about the fact that I know I'm one of the lucky ones. I'm one of those people who knew what she wanted to do (work with books), and who worked hard and got her degree and was fortunate enough to find a job in the field that she'd dreamed of working in. Did you know I did an internship in book publishing right out of college? I knew by day two that being an editor was the perfect job for me. Authors and books and writing and cover meetings and editing--it felt like happiness to me. Then I got the call that I was being hired to be a real-life editor. And Jeff was able to transfer to the Pepsi plant in Denver and we moved to Colorado and . . . suddenly I was a grown-up person with her dream job.
We're more than ten years down the road, and it's been amazing. I'm so, so thankful. But the truth is that I need a break. So once Lillian arrives, I won't be going back to work any time soon. After much discussion with Jeff, I decided I needed to do this. I think it's important to recognize our limits and to know when we need a little more space to breathe. And I have a feeling I need more than six weeks to adjust to life with three kiddos. Seriously. It's been a hard decision for me, but once I made it, I felt total peace about the whole thing. I just need a break and I want to focus on my kids during this season of our lives. I'm thankful I even have the option! I know lots of moms have to work outside the home, and I know lots of moms just function better when having an outlet like work (I tend to be the latter as well. We'll see how this goes! I think Jeff's a little nervous). Remember my word for this year, loveys? Brave. It's time for me to put that into action.
Once I’ve adjusted to life with three darlings, I’m sure I’ll ease back into freelance editing and such. It’s such a part of who I am. But I’m also really looking forward to writing more. That’s another large part of who I am. The writer in me has words to share. And I can’t wait to spend more time doing that. There are also other projects on my heart. Service and volunteer opportunities and that sort of thing. I want to get involved in areas where I’m really passionate.
So it’s a season of change, loveys. New baby daughter coming soon. I’m stepping back from a career I’ve loved for a decade. This will be my first summer at home with my kids. (Nancy, I will need lots of playdates or I know I will go nuts.)
The plain fact is that sometimes we need a break. Sometimes we need space from our “normal.” Sometimes we need a change in direction. Time to breathe. Time to dream all over again. Time to start something new. Time for quiet cuddles with the newest member of our family. I don’t know about you—but all of that sounds refreshing to me.
Here in Colorado—amid the 9 degrees and falling snow this morning—I’m dreaming of warm summer days. Hot dogs and watermelon in the backyard. Days to come. What are you dreaming of, loveys? What’s your heart longing for? Winter can be long in Colorado, I’m starting to feel desperate for spring. (And desperate for Cadbury eggs.) I’ve got two weeks left with my job and then right after that, Lillian should be making her appearance pretty soon. The end of an era. And a new beginning with beautiful possibilities.
Breathe deep today, loveys. Don’t stress. Wherever you are—deep in snow and dreaming of spring, making snow angels and loving the cold, or somewhere warm and sunny—pay attention to the whispers of your heart. Close your eyes and pray. Throw your hands up and dance. Be brave. It's in you. Let's be brave together. Really, it's in all of us.
Posted by Brandy Bruce at February 26, 2015